I put in a claim for disability and I really hope that I get approved. I will be very discouraged if I do not, but I will continue to appeal it until I do. This disease has really made me feel like a burden to my family. My poor husband works to keep our heads above water and picks up all the slack with the chores that I am unable to do. I really lucked out in the husband department. He has stood by me through some really dark times and yet he still wants to be with me. I think he is crazy, but I appreciate him more than I can ever express. I know if the roles were reversed I would be right there to take care of him as well, but I just can't help feeling like such a burden to all my loved ones who are continually doing the things *I* should be doing.
Another mental issue that happens to a lot of people with Cushing's is memory loss. I never really experienced this until about two years ago. I started taking the drug Diamox for my brain pressure issues and after that I started noticing that I was having a very hard time remembering every day words that I would use. I had to actually stop mid conversation and dig around my brain to find the correct word to pull out and use. I have always been known for my amazing memory and now I have to actually spell check simple words. Yesterday I couldn't remember if you spelled the plural of son as sons or son's. It's silly stuff like this that I am forgetting and it's very, very frustrating to me. Someone can tell me something and by the next day I will have forgotten it. It's one thing that Cushing's stole my body, but now it's taking my mind and I am not okay with that. I feel my IQ dropping every day and it's upsetting. I hope that I am able to reclaim my brain one day when this is all behind me. I miss it.